Three months have passed since the year started, and yet a lot of things have already happened in my life. It’s a mix of happy moments and sad ones. It’s easy to go through events that bring us happiness and excitement, but to endure the pains in life is something I have struggled with just like any other person.
The biggest realization I’ve had so far this year is that my faith in God is not as strong as I think. Saying that I’m holding on to my faith in the Lord with immense tenacity is one thing, but applying it in my life is another. All these years I’ve been focusing on what I can do to make things happen or to change the situation I’m in. I’ve been exhausting myself and trying to figure out what I can do to better the conditions. But to my dismay, most of my efforts led to frustration.
I had too much belief in myself that my actions will change situations according to my liking. It holds true to an extent, but I lost consciousness of the fact that I can only do so much. At some points, I have to let go and let God. It is still God who holds the reins and gives direction to my life. I have to trust God and believe in the plans He has for me. I may have big challenges, but I have a bigger God!
Don’t get me wrong. It is unsatisfactory to remain stagnant and wait for things to happen in your life, but with one’s action, faith must come along. It is more than just hoping for better things to come. It is knowing that God blesses us with greater things more than we could ever asked for.
All along I thought I wasn’t giving up on my faith. But it was actually God who wasn’t giving up on me.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.